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If I Died Tonight

February 21, 2010

If I Died Tonight

I am flying back from my address in Winnipeg, on my book tour. I have done well-enough for a boy who nearly failed to graduate from highschool.

If I died tonight I would go peacefully knowing that I have done, since my adulthood, all that I know how to do.

It is a cool, clear autumn night as I peer through thousands of feet of darkness down to the warm glimmering lights of thousands of homes, streets, and automobiles. Lights of thousands of pin-prick names and lives at a glance–“ant colonies” of human endeavor. I feel tiny but I am not alone in my tininess.

We matter to ourselves and to our loved ones but we, as individuals among the millions, do not matter very much.

Although we may protest that this should not be, it is so. And we show a child-like egocentrism when we protest, scream, and tantrum into the void in denial.

Let us not leave our small families, our few friends, and our towns in search of self-deification. It is with these people and in these places, that most of us can experience all that any human has a right to hope for: As much love, kindness and perfection in an imperfect world as any one in any age has ever enjoyed.

V. Thomas Mawhinney,Ph.D.     3/25/89

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